had dance today. the whole evening stretching up till nite. gosh the preparations are going well. the hoods are crazy though. bet they'll get in one lah. dance IMMEDIATELY after dinner, calvin and i were burpin and recaping steps. man this is too desperate but we finished the choreo and formation, getting more efficient or what!? hehe....i can't remember the steps i taught in class.. brazenly haha.... those freaks from Blast will. which comes to the point again, when i will stop seeing these guys. been a long time since i caught up with sec sch peeps. met my pal just now at as7, doesn't seem to wanna talk or acknowledge maybe he's in a hurry or something oh well better not think too much of that gesture. chill.
i do have to remember to hand up my report, get textbooks for next week..arrgghh hospital clinical med thing all over again but with kids yeah........... i hope i enjoy paeds.... cos i can't stand babies, toddlers aiyah those things crying, whining and making all that noise....still i'm looking forward.
no more gg malaysia for me then, damn suppposed to be a weekly thingy but too bad, have BETTER things to do (yes yes keep telling myself that, lets see slough at the hospital slough at the hospital and slough at the hospital), sometimes i wonder, if people in the general medical and surgical wards sleep post-prandially then those paediatric patients will be in somnolence state like 24 hrs or at times when THEY want to wake up and cry some more. man i pity the nurses already, must checkj their ears for plugs maybe that's how they cope....
lately been getting cranky (not gettin crunk!- ok LAME) like i would snap at the littlest stuff. again it's a mystery.maybe subconciously i'm fed up with some force somewhere. think it's about time i re-read my psychiatry text, what's that some theory of mind thingy. ah yes DSM IV might have the answer, no treatment though.....sigh again.... electroconvulsive? sertralin? psychotherapy?
right. was talking bout dance with fren just now. bout 5 schools of jazz, 6 schools of contemporary dance, the bickering ballet schools, hip hop and economics, approach, choreography, politics, adaptibility etc. got enlightened. yeah realised i have a long way to go..really long!! but MBBS first!! must pass, must work as HO, MO..... haha which reminds me saw my newly graduated senior dancing at jitterbugs, i'm like," eh don't u have patients to see?" apparently he has time to dance all that...doing salsa..i wanna do salsa.....okok soon soon... babies and women and bacteria and bones first ok....???? anyway for dance never actually put expectations on like winning stuffs like dance is merely dance and dance. i guess for me it's more like gaining experience and building confidence on stage and not forgetting steps etc.
anyway, been a tiring day, getting myalgia and myositis better stretch. gonna miss my jazz class tom. there goes one more day training hitch kicks, grande battement, arabesque and all other luigi stuff.......damn..........
Kandang Kerbau here i come.....soon haha