problems

the background noise will never go away. it radiates like the sun except it focuses it's energy on me and it hits like a thousand needles exploding from a plastic bomb. hurts everytime. i make myself louder or listen to the sounds of laughter; of joy, happiness and carefree, to silence the constant buzzing. when my evasion wanes, reality bites me. again. the pain progresses. it evolved into something incomprehensible. i numbed myself. frivolous attempts. now i wish i was deaf.....