Wednesday, October 19, 2005

blogging

Blogging makes you crack your head for things to write.
Blogging makes you cry, shout, burst in bouts of neverending anger, reading others' entries.
Blogging allows you to get to know people better.
Blogging sometimes is much better than hanging out at the mama shop late at night sipping cup after cup of tea.
Blogging is for the anarchist or the plain bored.
Blogging makes me pig myself in front of the computer screen.
Blogging is slowly killing my eyes, sagging the lenses.
Bloggin gets you frustated when you lose 45 minutes of endless typing.
There need not be a reason for blogging. Then again there are many reasons not to blog.
Blogging comes with responsibility and moderation.
Too much blogging ain't good for health. Too much extreme views whilel blogging ain't good for the readers' health. For blogging can cause you to get a heart attack for the failed heart. Blogging can get you into trouble for blogging or for hurting other bloggers. Blogging can get you free accommodation in the nearby jail. Sad.
Just blogging!!

A reaction

I am supposed to be doing my project or mug for my O&G posting that is round the corner. But I don’t know, it seems like I have things or issues to talk about. Nah…. not relationship stuff. I love my girlfriend so very the much! But stuff that people take for granted.
Like for instance nowadays it seems so hard for Muslim to be a Muslim without being subjected to scrutiny and pre-judgment. It also seems that those who are not muslims perceive muslims to be people who carry guns, have their own weird beliefs, have 4 wives and 16 children who are brats and will grow up to be terrorists and give birth to 16 more. Those culpable are not inclusive nor are they exclusive; I am just drawing a picture of what I see in general. The questions I get from friends, the news I see on BBC, CNN, CAN etc, and the evidence of acts of my fellow (under)-educated Singaporeans. More so this is MY reaction to the recent local misappropriation of the so-called notion of freedom of speech of the cyber world that we assumed to be legislatively immune!
Sometimes remarks made do not actually reflect the actual situation nor does it satisfy the requirements of a coherent balance remark as always the case with anything meaning, it doesn’t include the “that being said…..” part!
So this doesn’t have to be about religion or a focus on Muslims alone, but I think the universal worldview of Islam and Muslims among non-muslims (unless of course you are Osama bin Laden or Mr. Al-Zarqawi) is that through the distorted lens of terrorism. People choose to look at the abnormalities in the society and not the normal majority. But somehow for Islam this vulnerability that it is being subjected to seems to stem from this phenomena of representation. Ok what the hell am I talking about right? Representation? In a way, Muslims seem to represent Islam more when the minority misuse it, so called in the name of Allah. This is in contrast to the Ireland’s IRA or the Sri Lankan Tamil tigers. Their profile is definitely religious, Catholics and Hindus, but what makes them different from us Muslims. Why is it that we are subjected to more discrimination, more media attention etc? All three have a common struggle but what is it. For the Catholics and Hindus above, theirs are that of nationalism. Eh? So you mean those Muslims are not for political struggles also? Answer: depends on geopolitics. However sadly to say, differential distinct geopolitical profile has turned or worse transformed into a generalized universality, that would be difficult to change. The struggles of Osama and JI terrorists are self-proclaimed to be a JIHAD for Muslims in the name of God. And the world knows about it when bombs go off and those responsible raise their voices to announce their atrocious acts that they deem worthy of martyrdom. And they speak on behalf of us.
That is why the majority moderate Muslims are encouraged to speak out against such atrocious acts. These are one of those times where passivity means we agree or approve or worse we become passive accomplices in the cause of these minority bigots. However that said (note this usage) there are Muslims who believe that there is no point in speaking up. The local newspaper columnist Asad Latif mentioned in his address at the Muslim Convert’s Association early this year in his analysis which I quote,” familiar argument…no need to be apologetic about terrorism by Muslims when other faith communities have not cried themselves hoarse over terrorist attacks carried out by the IRA or Tamil Tigers.”
But he also rightly counter-argued this comment by saying that the reason why other communities are not speaking is they know the reason behind these atrocities, which are politically driven rather than religiously motivated. So I guess unless a Muslim thinks and agrees that the what the Al-Qaeda says about themselves struggle in the name of God, then I guess Muslims MUST speak up against. Similarly, in the case of blog bigotry, I guess we too, should speak up, so that we can help clarify and educate.
At the end of it, I do belief that no one is born a terrorist nor intolerant. These are inculcated values and attributes that are seeded, grow and ingrained over years of indoctrination. It does not cultivate in a vacuum. So yah maybe the problem is with the identification of ROOT causes. Just like medicine, to treat someone is to offer him symptomatic treatment, to CURE him is to identify the root cause and treat appropriately. This applied; it is not esoteric or complicated to try to identify the root problem as to their actions. To give an example, some time in May or June this year, there was the Saudi American Embassy bombings. Why would they want to bomb a group of Americans who are helping the country build up their oil industry? What have these foreigners done? Could there be a political motive behind these attacks or is it REALLY a problem of religious intolerance? Even so that doesn’t quantify as a religious cause for the simple reason that religious education or education for that fact aims to produce people who are ultimately wise and tolerant. Otherwise, it would be the antithesis of its objective!
What I am trying to say is that Islam should not be used as a means to rationalize terrorist acts. And Muslims, as individuals and as members of the global community, are humans too. We embrace the values of compassion, neighborliness, justice, we listen to music too be it Bach, Vivaldi, we study 16th century English literature seriously too, we grow in peace, work, go to bed at night, eat and play. Muslims also think.
Finally Mr. Latif says at the end of the speech which I summaries my long windedness, “...there are causes and there is terrorism. What I am saying is that Islam should not be used to link the two.”

Tuesday, October 18, 2005

a comment

have been a few past performances in the recent weeks since teh last time i wrote. the preparation for the next wave was packed with razor bitching sessions, endless political struggles of the underclass, the vicous malignancy of uncontrolled outbursts and its side effects, the aftermath of horrible dance rehearsals, the unwelcoming unrelenting exudation of viscous ego, the senseless repetition of steps and the dreaded hours of time better used! what's worse towards the emancipation came remarks of deconstruction it's like setting up the skeleton of the building only to have it destroyed by a tongue. in an attempt to construct in whatever interest or whatever form of psychology, i think it'll do justice if one applied a judicious method of analysis and not mere physical form. i am not out here to critisise the breadth of experience and choreographical acumen and sensitive interpretation of movement, expression(feeling from the inside, which i understood more reading one paragraph from a website than having 5-10 people trying to explain to me, in the end getting more confused and flustered and left to feel hopeless-thanks luigi!) and articulation but merely in the context of it's delivery, which can be approached more systematically and productively, in a way that points the strength and weakness with the attempt to not destroy n reconstruct as in the building analogy but to work on what has already been worked on. similarly, i personally feel that the politicking in dance is nonsense shit, pardon my blunt-ness. but i don't know the objective of dance to some. personally it's about knowing and exploring movements in one's body that can translate to meaningful vocabulary for people to understand, at the same time to develop my skills in adaptibility to different genres, technique that not only helps in strengthening the body but also help me to understand the reason why my body moves a certain way it does, in a way, developing a tangible understanding of the limitations of the human body, which need not be physiologically or academically explored. a local dance, Michael Sim, correctly attributes dance into three aspects that complements one another. he mentioned that dance comprises of knowledge, technique and feel/groove/others etc. allow me to personally apply my limited knowledge i attempt to pass judgement in this matter.
knowledge encompasses knowing what u are doing. without knowledge. the rest doesn't fall into place. it doesn't even make sense. however, it is not necessary. some people say knowledge is an adjunct to movement esp when it comes to dance i.e. it becomes cumbersome to know. i admittedly acknowledge my ignorance in dance history, terminology, its significance what have nots. but i think it's quintessential. not only it helps one to appreciate dance better, it may also be an impetus for further development. besides, knowledge of dance will help in technique development. Aristotle said,"The roots of education are bitter, but the fruit is sweet." i think time spent in educating oneself about dance is worthwhile especially if ur interest is there, when u are young, focused and commitment-free. i quote another local dancer, Syed Hamzah, who tells me,"think about it!" on a more personal note, i encourage those people who are dance enthusiast to get dance education albeit miniscule. it helps to create dancers who are dance educated and not mere monkeys who dance and don't know what they're talking about half the time. i feel guilty!
with regards to technique, ah-hah, seems to be getting full circle already it seems. ok not quite. i think to develop technique one has to have 1)discipline 2)enthusiasm 3)openness 4)good habits 5)good genes 6)time and money. of course this list is non-exhaustive but i derived this out of personal experience- not that i have much of it in the first place.and as usual comments are welcomed for what anyone thinks contributes to technique development. but essentially, i think the root of developing technique can be summarised into the 1st point about discipline. the good thing i see from singapore dancers is their determination to persevere, not all, not some, but most! I guess whatever genre one does, the technique is important. Again i quote from the jazz dance innovator, who candy and i find extremely inspiring, Eugene Facciuto a.k.a Luigi, "if u keep doing things RIGHT long enough, they'll get better right, But if you keep doing things wrong long enough, they'll feel right, WRONG!" some concepts are difficult i have to say, i'm struggling myself in jazz and hip hop but needless to say if i put the right attitude in maybe i'll get better or worse! in addition i think it is important that we as dancers learn from someone who is experienced in that genre of dance. sure....of course you can d/l tonnes of online videos, copy them and make them ur own, show it to ur friends and they blindly follow, not knowing their risking their physical entity. my point is when it comes to execution, your teacher is your best mirror,not the mirror you see on the wall! i guess that's my reason for putting money in limiting factor 6! true dance is expensive for the some of us, but it's worth it. i mean, unless u are michael sim, who i congratulate for his undying, unvarnished spirit for emphasising knowledge and proper technique, presentation etc, dance teachers need to pay PUB bills also! Besides, knowing to do things right also helps to minimise injury to the body. we dance to enjoy ourselves, not to kill ourselves. i guess at the same time technique should come with a little understanding of the dance anatomy and physiology. the only person i know who does that, other than teachers in LaSalle SIA, NAFA or Odyssey Dance theatre, is Peter Teo.
After much nonsense about technique and knowledge, the realm of much controversy and much of where the nonsense of whose right and wrong when u don't know wat the hell you are talkign about urself takes place! The 'feel/groove/etc' is much debatable. so whose right? what should locking look like? you should feel this way doing this..not that! i get these things all the time. people who explain so-called mechanisms without the theory! personally, i think, lest u are dancing in a group or doing some contemporary shit, it doesn't matter how one really feels so long as you enjoy yourself, again, Mr. Luigi says," It is the rhythm of the body and the feeling.....when dancing you must not intellectualize. forget about yourself. for right now you are not you- you are tuning up your body...." This does not apply to jazz only. in fact it applies to hip hop e.g. krumping, locking, robot etc. i guess simply put technique is the summation of knowledge and technique that translate into meaningful movements and feel is the externality that provides for sensible expression and interpretation.
i hope to have put a lot of things into better light. but somehow i think it has not resolved the issue of what i would term political dancing, which blatantly i am experiencing first hand. some of the dancers i know have the wrong attitude and approach to dancing, which contradicts the purpose of dancing in the first place. some of the dancers i know have skulls so thick, i swear it's made of pure ego!
then there's this thing about comparing yourself and others, which i have to address. it's not wrong, for me personally, cause i am setting a benchmark for myself, whatever or whoever it is. but sometimes it gets excessive and unnecessary. i believe if you want to dance and be better or excellent, challenge urself and see how u do, not by (passively or actively) challenging others.
i have a lot to learn from dance. i try to experiment, imitate, develop my own style and educate myself, a little a day. Someone told me- i forgot who," good dancers are good observers." i strongly concur and i encourage dancers to open up their senses when dancing and learning. it's not rocket science nor neuroscience. it's just using what u have! that being said, there are many studies i read that try to study the factors that affect one's dance development.
However,would they even matter if the seeds aint for the right tree?

Thursday, October 06, 2005

time is precious. of late, precious time has been slipping thru my fingers like grains of fine minute sand that upon leaving gets blown away into the neighbouring vicinity of concrete and just goes to waste.

recently, i embraced nonsense, loved the sunkissed durians, enjoyed the background noise of middle road, craved for intellectual stimuli, collected clasted fragments of superficiality, reasoned my ignorance, centrifuged logic into esoteric sediments. all these in quality time.

in this space of time too since i last wrote in i encountered the multifacet society with the emancipation of idoits, the bigotry of masses, the paradoxical eccentricities of life and death and the in-betweens, the altruistic persuit of individual narcissism, i get confused.
i don't know whether to love or hate. are they writings or mirrors on the wall?

T.S.