it was a sunday and i was up and about by the time it was noon and got myself ready for the day ahead. it started with classes at geylang, which was quite humbling, seeing so many people from all walks of life exercising their lips and tongues, attesting or hoping to at least attest to one faith. there were some funny moments though, i was there and listening to all these people trying to recite the opening verse of the quran with their native tongues, funny sometimes, bloopy sometimes but learned something about language. mr. bani is always enlightening us. and i as usual i get the ignorant spell, try to compensate by scribbling it somewhere somehow on my little notebook then he 'enlightened' us again by sayin that a 14th century muslim philosopher who had special interest in education and learning said that it was better for a person to learn something by looking at the speaker than by looking into the book, for which he explained that ur vision is limited by the lines in the book...what about the lines on the face? in this day and age, it's very hard not to be perturbed by those creases one has and wondering whether or not they've heard of botox and such, but ok that not the point. anw he akin learning as to downloading software into a computer i.e. the computer doesnt know would have to be made known to it by downloading or installing the software. and the process of communicating this information is via usbs or wires etc. he correlated this to learning with humans having to download whatever info, maybe with the help of books and stuff but i think what he is trying to say is that wireless is better. haha. ok lame. but u get what i mean. i still can't remember the name of the philospher though, algazee..something. after that it was some interacting sessions with people of some sort and i didnt socialise, the usual anti social me.
then it was off to some studying which didn;t happen but i ended up at toa payoh central lib to read haruki murakami's sputnik sweetheart and later on when over to SPANs to meet up with a special someone for lunch, and it was banquet once again but this time it was la mian, think it's called da zhang la mian or something. damn nice! and damn worth it, first time i tasted la mian, thick wormlike noodles handmade out of flour and pulled and stretched into fine noodles. i hope the la mianer washed his or her hands though, cause i tasted the flour and he's pulling it with his bare hands and so maybe i also tasted the......ok never mind. what's nice was nice, right?
then it was off to serangoon for some studying, some girl was under the watchful eye of the father, possessive!
it was sentosa thenafter, we went with the intention to catch a glimpse of the sun setting, candy and i but there were clouds and it was post showers ok no thunderstorm is more apt, that we were only able to see those amber streaks and residual orange sunlight with the clouds superimposed onto it all the way into the horizon. at the foreground there were anchored ships, dull and rustic, creating some sort of a disgusting contrast to this almost (well definitely not perfect, in singapore it'll never be) acceptable local 'version' of the ideal sunset. but u dont have to be environmentaly anal to be spending time with someone, it's how u spend it that matters, i'll say. but who am i to say- i'm not some 14th century philosopher.
sentosa can be boring really esp when darkness falls, of course nothing to see, not that there's things to see in the first place! so we went driving round and round with the occasional- breaks!
then came monday. and the blues..... i decided to not go for ryans class lyrical that is. and i'm wanting to do more lyrical stuff in the future, boring or what, but i think it makes the movements more meaningful if u actually translate the words into choreography. and also to follow the footsteps of my current dance idols- from where else but so u think u can dance- melody, blake, kalimah!!, nick and craig!!
and monday was the day i made the decision not to choreograph for DR, no time for a lot of things. i'll just dance and keep myself busy many other ways. maybe i'll stop choreographing for now at least till something comes along the way and circumstances improve and the drive allows and maybe if i breathe in more motivation, i just might.
i'm late for tutorial now, this hospital room is getting dusty and getting to my nose.. aarrggh. the funny thing is i'm seated at the department of allergy, immunology and rheumatology.

the zouk show just ended... i wished all shows were like this one..practice for one night 2 hrs and then crunch time on the day itself (wth stage run of course) just do all out. it's quite a great experience again haha i recalled doing the show for zouk reopening some time back in dont know when and the audience were like arms length and tonight it was closer they were like-let's see- a hand's length. and there was this old woman who keeps wanted to peck her lips at the guys dancing. i almost stuffed my mask- we were doing this ala victorian dance thingy with the costumes and all- into her lipstick drawn wannabe small mouth. she looked like rupaul. never mind. it was quite freaky anyway. calvn can attest to that... this zouk 15th anniversary thing was a success more or less in terms of organisation and deco. the interior was transformed into some 19 century mansion with those pictures you see hanging on their walls like in those scooby doo movies/cartoons and it was white gold and red. there were spinning doors and great lights and excellent crowd that kept cheering even though i forgot my steps but not so great music. i can never apprciate dance tracks.... well enough said...was not too bad an experience, can upload the pics la but i techno-igno...
i didn't realise i had a long weekend though..skipped school on thursday and end up having 4 days break..it's already the third day.who am i kidding it's already the forth....oh what the heck i need to study soon
speaking of which all the best to those nus and ntu students having their exams soon....dont screw up ur lives..or dabao module... campus lingua franca, kinda weird...
i need more clothes for postings and i need to start reading hardcore.. i mean read more.... i mean start enriching myself with medical knowledge.. damn everything turning out wrong...
went out with shiks and rohaidah the other day and talked about misbehaving school children and how to deal with them..anyone got any ideas? rohaidah could use some help....
study....

neurology has started and as usual my enthusiasm lasts not more than one day and the rest of the posting it gets less and less till i slack. in fact i felt that already in day one. dr. lee told us that we can relax during this elective period- wish there were more tutors like that- and dedicated at the same time (he's spoonfeeding us like mad, messaged to tell us to bring empty CDR so that he can pass us his notes the whole stack!) whack! he's one of those eccentric tutors, i can tell...laughs at the stupidest jokes- loudly some more and has spice girls in his mp3 player which he proudly proclaims huh? i almost burst out laughing just now but what the heck, after the mini tutorial he told us we could go home.. and tht was like 3pm...yeah! night calls are not necessary, you can go home and read ur books (or go dancng!- yeah!). tom having a morning session with him in the wards, help us brush up technique. looking forward to observe his eccentricities.
tired......

exams are over. the end of year four. one more to go and a lifetime to work. i wonder what age doctors retire. not even want to think about that right now. been doing too many shows of late, should do less and spend more quality time with frens and family. but dance is definitely like some ecstatic addiction, can't seem to let go, maybe cause there's so many more things to try. but there are other priorities nevertheless. anyway just ended campus superstar and the kids are crazy, i decided that i might be allergic to screaminh teenagers, they are like mentally ill hyenas. damn, it's beyond the glass breaking feat man... dont even know what to call it- earth shattering? got to choreo for DR this coming ?sept i think forgot already, but many others are doing it too, just too many to mention but i guess it'll be good, even juniors are doing....respect. points for courage and enthusiasms, we need more Blast! members like that, but then again if everyone choreo something then the concert will never end.....or maybe we can have item auditions then axe those not worthy (ok damn evil-sekali my one kena axe). spending the break dancing and reading stuff i wanted to read but never had the chance to but still not reading them, very tired nowadays espcially after the pathology paper which i BET will pull my overall grade down! for that i'll like to thank the bloody pathologists who set questions that were 'original' yet lacking specificity to the exam subject, so we studied heart, lung, pancreatic diseases but one bloody question came out on how to conduct an autopsy!! fair enough, but they didn't even teach us how to conduct an autopsy properly also....hmm.....speaking of which i am currently reading this book by swettenham called malay sketches about life in malaya back in 1880s-1890s and he was talking about this malay man who went 'amok'(ang mohs call it amuck cause they cannot pronounce it properly) and went on a killing spree, bla bla bla cut the story short he died in the end when someone tried to stop him and he bled to death under someone's kampung house and they did a 'bedah siasat' literally 'incision-investigate' in malay which means autopsy and the findings were tat of a deep cut to the fascia of the thigh which cause the bleedng probably via the femoral artery and brain findings revealed a 'stickier' right brain wrt left. what is that supposed to mean? and being an idiot i thought autopsies as opposed to anatomical academic dissections are a contemporary thing, little did i know, they even did it in malaya. i wonder how the colonialists convinced the local malays- who are devout muslims-to allow the body for forensic investigation(s)?
someone i know is getting forgetful nowadays, maybe stress la hor. i also a bit stressed. very bored la holidays. sometimes i wished things were not so clashy. everyone very busy.