exams are over. the end of year four. one more to go and a lifetime to work. i wonder what age doctors retire. not even want to think about that right now. been doing too many shows of late, should do less and spend more quality time with frens and family. but dance is definitely like some ecstatic addiction, can't seem to let go, maybe cause there's so many more things to try. but there are other priorities nevertheless. anyway just ended campus superstar and the kids are crazy, i decided that i might be allergic to screaminh teenagers, they are like mentally ill hyenas. damn, it's beyond the glass breaking feat man... dont even know what to call it- earth shattering? got to choreo for DR this coming ?sept i think forgot already, but many others are doing it too, just too many to mention but i guess it'll be good, even juniors are doing....respect. points for courage and enthusiasms, we need more Blast! members like that, but then again if everyone choreo something then the concert will never end.....or maybe we can have item auditions then axe those not worthy (ok damn evil-sekali my one kena axe). spending the break dancing and reading stuff i wanted to read but never had the chance to but still not reading them, very tired nowadays espcially after the pathology paper which i BET will pull my overall grade down! for that i'll like to thank the bloody pathologists who set questions that were 'original' yet lacking specificity to the exam subject, so we studied heart, lung, pancreatic diseases but one bloody question came out on how to conduct an autopsy!! fair enough, but they didn't even teach us how to conduct an autopsy properly also....hmm.....speaking of which i am currently reading this book by swettenham called malay sketches about life in malaya back in 1880s-1890s and he was talking about this malay man who went 'amok'(ang mohs call it amuck cause they cannot pronounce it properly) and went on a killing spree, bla bla bla cut the story short he died in the end when someone tried to stop him and he bled to death under someone's kampung house and they did a 'bedah siasat' literally 'incision-investigate' in malay which means autopsy and the findings were tat of a deep cut to the fascia of the thigh which cause the bleedng probably via the femoral artery and brain findings revealed a 'stickier' right brain wrt left. what is that supposed to mean? and being an idiot i thought autopsies as opposed to anatomical academic dissections are a contemporary thing, little did i know, they even did it in malaya. i wonder how the colonialists convinced the local malays- who are devout muslims-to allow the body for forensic investigation(s)?
someone i know is getting forgetful nowadays, maybe stress la hor. i also a bit stressed. very bored la holidays. sometimes i wished things were not so clashy. everyone very busy.