its start of a new posting and things have been good except for a few glitches partly blamed for my lack of sound knowledge. and i can't blame anyone for the mistakes i have made and therefore have to take responsibility for them. but i was just wondering whether being admonished for it publicly was justified. i was never so much affected by being reprimanded until now. not so much by the mistakes that were pointed out (which i feel are part and parcel of learning process, although people's lives and outcomes may be seriously affected) but rather by my perception of how the process was carried out. and not help but having the gut feeling that some form of preconception played a part in it. and somehow, like most times, i will have a difficult time trying to recover from such 'lessons', making my 'learning' process more trying in the sense that my rationality gets clouded by my misconstruing the whole situation. like although i know that it was supposed to be a learning thingy, there's this intangible residual effect that was left behind from that encounter that made me feel that,"hey why do i have this strange feeling that this wasn't going to be the last of it?" i'm sure people out there feel the same, i don't know, cause not many people voice it out. i probably am just looking too much into this. but like i said, these things do not affect me! but this time it does! ask my dance friends. they would probably go like taufik is a bitch when he is teaching choreography but maybe not so when that 'teaching' is over! but maybe its because that someone i love is somewhere in HongKong!