time; 1am. i just got back from first night of dance reflections a few hours ago, no one hour ago. the performances: superb. the crowd: a bit dead. i didn't get the reinforcement from those watching. thence, most of the hitting and locking and forced ferociously fake smile and mouth opening teeth showing saliva dropping and sucking it back up act was all on my part, collectively on the lockers part. i saw the look on san thit's face, a mix of apprehension and excitement but she did well. i made some subtle, recoverble mistakes, if not for the stupid suspenders, which by the way i last minutely decided to loosen so that my pants don't look like it's one of those shrunk wrinkled pants waiting to explode by the time i get on the floor with the American split. and the dance Whores! my favourite part, probably cause my favourite girl was dancing too, a bit far to the left side of the stage but i can still see with my now not so perfect eyesight! and guess what i heard? rumour has it she dances like a 'n--ger'! a chinese n--ger! hmm..a Chinkger? alright, getting lame there.
well i thought that despite all the usual forget steps and everyone enjoying themselves and the occasional mis/displacement from ur i-have-already-marked-stage-but-still-people-forget-their-positions, which i don't understand, i didnt feel like dancing dancing u know. ok maybe u don't but yah.... maye its the audience! damn audience!! what the hell, tom will be better i hope. the people in Suntec will definitely resonate proportionately..again i hope! don't wanna waste moi efforts, and the rest of course. tom i'm supposed to be doing the curtain call thingy to replace pat which won't be there cause he's judging Suntec. i hope i don't screw it, already on the day we performed for thumboo i forgot and all the choreographers forgot to get on stage (that part was unrehearsed)! never mind.
i was readng Newsweek and Today newspaper on the way to school and at home respectively and the main themes running in my head is awareness, which is what print media (10% of it at least, the rest 90% are ads) wants to achieve. that plights of people locally or globaly are real and that they affect us all, like it or not. that their suffering is ours too. over in this part of the world, we can't do much for others suffering out there (maybe one day we can) but we can spread love and passively raise awareness to those close to us, maybe they have connections who can indirectly or directly offer a hand. i believe most people believe in the concept of a community. and if they do then we are also responsible for those who suffer. ok going into the sappy zone, ok better get out.
and recently there's this hype about bloggers and their opinions. i would like to add something. i think bloggers should be responsible enough for whatever they post on their blogs and at the same time know that there's no absolutism in the the expression, ' freedom of speech'. just had to say, not say i want to say but i'll say and i did just say so paisey! ok whatever......
medical update: haha...on my postings lah. going to do forensic patho for 2 weeks starting monday and starting theology classes this Sunday! (wait....that's not medical) right.....
for those who just bumped into this blog, u still have chance to get tickets and watch DR (details in previous blog)!! and tell me if u're coming. i was surprised zahdan was there.. i mean he came to support Ilsa as well....appreciated.... time: 1.31am. activity: stoning soon