break from the books

i'm supposed to be studying now. but i'm stoning. so i decided that that was a waste of time. so i unstoned and decided to write(type) an entry. right now. my muscles are aching from non-stop dancing. blast! and ensemble. damn tiring can. i didn't know that the tech classes were so demanding! arrggh. now i feel like a pregnant woman. damn.then came the pas de deux! my wrists almost gave way. but i still smiled. i can't help but kacau rozana. that girl so kacau-able! ok sentosa was fun. baking and crusting until it's too late and teh next thing u know u are scorching! red red red. ouch! yup that's what happened. poor me. go again next week. this time i stay in the shade....;p it seems weird to me that i feel none of the joy and anticipation for pappadum. maybe cause the rest of the dancers can't be bothered too. call me sensitive. i don't know, maybe i'm expecting too much. somehow the blast! people are like hhhmmm what shall i say....ok i can't find the word and my mind is thinking of diagnostic criteria for HSP. shit! there's a test tom at KK. i hope the tutors are nice. i really hope so. ok better go back now.