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i realised that i have thought about a lot of things today but as usual i forget about them because when the end of the day arrives, half of them would have already evaporated, a quarter gets stuck to the cortices and the last quarter gets posted as rubbish interpretation or worse are things that i recall with such vividness but of futile quality and insignificance with regards to inferences and abstractions of course.
i woke up dreamin of a college tutor getting HIV and was overtly spilling her verbal diarrhea all over me and i was shocked but in that dream i cared. i actually wanted to listen! and i sat with her and she told me about her concerns and prognosis and she was like how u doing in medical school all that. we didn;t delve into the aetiological or possible mode of contraction but yah it was fun after all these years. she still looks the same albeit a bit fat!
then i realised i was at home. and sighed. my brain went into a frenzy. and was continually repeating the phrase, "get out..u don;t belong here". and my concious muttered it to me like a parrot! then i get agitated. then i go thinking...i'm an outdoor-ese and not an indoor-nesian! sigh. so i forced myself to think of something to do before i decompose within these 4 walls i call my room. i did my report. just completed it. relieve!
later i pictured a scenario in my head. what if someone -a non-muslim singaporean- was beating up a muslim lady wearing her tudung in public in a crowded shopping mall and i was there to witness that? what would be my reaction? well i mean if the muslim lady did something to him/her like beating his/her child or stealing his/her wallet/purse then maybe she deserved it but i can't help thinking what if he/she was reacting to the London bombings? and this was the only he/she knew to express her disdain and sorrow and emphatise with those who suffered. so how do we react, we muslims in singapore? we never had a situation like this and probably never will, hoepfully, but i cant help but picture this scenario. what would be the consequences of acting and not reacting to the situation.hmmm.... think think think!!
then i thought of writing a book on the medical perspective of dance and how we medically interpret dance in terms of bodily physiology, anatomical concepts of movement etc. but then i don't wanna do orthopaedics nor sports medicine and become a dance consultant so maybe that was just a thought.maybe i'll just dance.
then i thought about the malay language and how beautiful it is and how disgusting of me not to know it. i mean know it well of course...ok feelin a bit tired shall continue again tom i hope...
remix was great. we were first runner ups!