POLARised

it;'s getting worse by the day as i document my rotting self into cyberspace. health is defined by which one has equilibrium of physical mental and social health. by that definition, i'm not healthy and so are the rest of the people here in the library. physically- everyone looks fine. ok maybe not cause i've just seen people who physically, ok shit! there's no word to describe it. here's the thing everyone staring at one another as if they've taken overdose of anticholinesterase or high on thyroid hormones or something and their hair are like man! oklah actually my hair also. "eh wait, i have nice hair can!" nevermind that. physically, i'm out of shape all this studying has made me fatter, and if it's any consolation the rest of the medical faculty's getting fat with me, except that qingyuan, he seems to be looking the same, maybe it's the jacket he's wearing, "uh huh!! idea eh!!" so yep, the whole library is fat now which makes all the more apt, the damn place is cold and all of us fat wearing white jackets, doesn;t that remind you of national geographic? like polar bears in de-stress, the whole watchin em. i bet these creatures are divas man, everytime i see them on TV the look so good, so image concious! what the heck? anyway, that reminds me of the polar bear from comic strip Sherman's Lagoon who got adrift on an iceberg just to reach the Carribean to meet Sherman, on the iceberg! How ludicrous? The is that polar bear made frens, socialisin with the Carribean oceaners, not unlike us med students, we're so deprived of social life and like polar bears we're stuck in here in our tundraic comforts. which brings me to the next aspect of well-being. socially i'm gone for now arrgghh it's only been like what 2 days, get a grip! but yeah it gets to you sometimes when inside this big fridge, you see the whole world go as if u're in the amphitheatre watching and what separates you from the life outside is NOT the glass panes but your notes! damn it these things are getting worse to read nowadays. chore. and yes mentally, i'm getting unsound, i hope i won't demented some time in the future or some schizophrenia or something. it happened last night while i was putting myself to bed i heard a woman's voice and that of a kid IN MY HEAD. and they keep giggling, so i was like is it me or is it outside the house cause it's FREAKY. and having gone through my share of psychiatry, and having emphatised and all ultimately, i don't want to end up being one. really. so it was kinda surprise. the voices went away of course, eventually 2 hours later. and i slept late and woke up late and started studying late too.
enough bout that and me already. i'm still thinking though what HEalth Advice to dispense over cyberspace? where to start? anyone?