in this city where i love you

fluorescent spectacle
ignites sparkles of
inert tensions and that
invisible torture and,
i wonder in the nocturnal silence
of frightful pessimism of impending
praecoxial pathological,

suffering inconsistent with wishful
thinking and prayers
and heartfelt personal perusal
with frequency; like the need for
river to taste the freedom of the sea;
or vast contents of your ocean.

in this city where i love you
the colourless caricatures of
humanity distorts
me - my reality, perceptions
thoughts as apathy, indolence
perpetually attempt to override
this constancy,

i surrender
not out of fatigue
not out of dehydrated wills of
obdurating struggles
but out of penetrated
personage and solitary
mortality.