Prelude to mother's day

i've always thought of my mom as someone who's in her own world. she's always doing things covertly; for her own reasons. the thing is i've never really appreciated her for the person she is, but judge her for what she does and through that myopism, i make my conclusion about her. well it's been programmed into my head such that it's hard for me to have a positive remark, at times. realisation takes time to happen and for me, my so called 'wisdom' eventually got me to my senses; telling me 'hey!! c'mon think!!"

so i did just that and now i'm putting in effort to actually hypersensitise my senses to further understand my mother better and somehow it's been great! i learned new things i've never known about her, why she behaves the way she does, etc.

i guess there are reasons to why people to da things they do. i have my own. but one thing for sure, a life without that motherly would be a meaningless life. maybe some of u may disagree, like i said u may have ur reasons. nevertheless, do try to get to know ur mom well --> if you haven't already. don't be afraid if you think you'll look 'fake' if you decide to drastically shower your affection overnight. take that step towards reconcilation and fill up those missing pieces of your emotions/feelings. i did and trust me it'll be a step you'll never forget.

mother will get a huge surprise on that day i bet
and no!! it ain't any frame nor some stupid hat
try as i might, like finding a needle on a pilestack of hay
i can never repay her not even on mother's day